| Location | Florida |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Birth | 2006 |
| Date of Death | 02/12/2006 |
| Visitors | 9,147 since 13/06/2009 |
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What a cruel test of nature. I was NOT suppose to even be able to get pregnant. I had my tubes looped (tied) after my daughter was born when I was 22 and @ the age of 26 I had a partial hysterectomy. Apparently, my one tube came unlooped enough for my egg to ovulate to the tip and be fertilize right there. So, I had a tubal pregnancy. 1 in 750,000 of a chance. I was so sick, we thought I had the flu. Then out of the blue, a family member said, "why don't you just go get a pregnancy test done, just for giggles!" I took my niece a couple days later (Nov.22nd) to planned parenthood and she had a test done. So, I said, "I'm here. Might as well." The joke was on ME!! It came back POSITIVE!!! We were in COMPLETE disbelief!! I made the woman do it TWICE....I knew this was not a good thing and so did she...But, I went home, and showed the tests to my husband....We figured I got pregnant somewhere in October, without a period we couldn't be sure. So, we went by when I started getting so sick. The whole 9 weeks I was pregnant that baby would not let me eat ANYTHING except fresh veggies and fruit! I couldn't be around ANY meat raw OR cooked...The smell and sight just....UGH!! What a great Thanksgiving :) Me, sicker than a dog and trying to cook a feast for 15 ppl. I tried so hard not to get excited because I knew I couldn't carry him but it was so hard and my poor husband didn't understand any of it, except it could not be. He tried to come up with every possibility there was to save our son. The doctors set up on the 30th of Nov (after confirming through blood work that I was in fact pregnant) for me to come in on the 4th of Dec. to have him removed. BUT, I ended up passing him on Dec 2nd. I started bleeding around 8 p.m on Dec. 1st. I called my husband in and told him what was happening. And by 1:00 a.m on Dec 2nd, He was gone. I had passed my baby boy. Such bad days either way...the 4th of Dec
is my fathers Angel Day and Dec 2 was my wedding anniversary of my marriage to my ex-husband. But God took my precious baby boy on the early hours of the 2nd. Like I said I knew, I was not suppose to get pregnant. But that does not stop the pain any less. Writing and talking about him is just another way for me to get some of the grief out. I have a tattoo my husband, designed for me and his son on my right fore arm and we are making a granite slate for him eventually. His name is Marty Charles Ascani even though I couldn't carry him, we still named him, for he WAS and IS our baby. Ever since I lost him, I still to this day, even 3 yrs later, feel an empty void in my life, that I know will never go away. Sleep tight my little boy for we will all meet again in Gods Heavens one day. Be that brightest star in His Heavenly sky and know Mommy & Daddy do miss you very much!! And know you were there and DID exist, even if only for a brief time. We love you!!
I want to thank everyone that takes the time to stop and read about my precious angel, if you have a moment pls light a candle, not just for him, but for all the loved ones we all have lost too soon! God be with you & yours! XXxxXX
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I Know A Place...
I know a place just out of sight
Where truth dispels the darkest night
And angels whisper in delight
To share a perfect plan...
So far away, yet in our midst,
Prepared for those who dare persist
Through tribulations reminisced
Before the earth began.
A kingdom waits around the bend
Too great for us to comprehend
Past limits we cannot transcend
Or hope to understand...
And those who long arrived before
Still beckon from that distant shore
Beyond the churning ocean's roar
Like countless grains of sand.
Oh! how I yearn to beckon too
Or stroll the golden streets with you
And quench my thirsty soul anew,
Released from shades of gray...
Our earthly woes shall disappear
And none shall scoff in silent fear
No other life exists but here
Upon this sphere of clay.
On wings of grace, I'll join you there -
We'll soar together through the air
And follow fragrant wisps of prayer
To where the angels sing...
Our transformation has begun
From foreigner to native son,
And soon our souls shall join as one
To kneel before the King
by Kenn Allan
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I see you in the sun rise
On a brand new morn
I see you in the rose
That unfolds from bud
To perfect bloom
I hear you in the
Bird’s song
As they sing
At early dawn
I feel you in the
Gentle breeze
As you softly
Caress my skin
And at the end
Of the day
When the sun
Goes to sleep
The moon awakes
The stars come
Out to light
The sky
Again I see you
Shining down
On me from afar
Copyright© Leza 21.1.2012
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Remember Me
Remember me when flowers bloom
Early in the spring
Remember me on sunny days
In the fun that summer brings
Remember me in the fall
As you walk through the leaves of gold
And in the wintertime – remember me
In the stories that are told
But most of all remember
Each day – right from the start
I will be forever near
For I live within your heart
Written by Judith Karen Bulock
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I have a heart full of memories
That's all I have left of you
Each one treasured fondly
With all the things
We used to do.
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I have a beautiful angel
In heaven high above
A beautiful beautiful angel
I was blessed to love.
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Dust In The Wind
I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind
Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Now don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the Earth and Sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
~Kansas~
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A book can be compared to life
Some books contain many pages
Some books only a few
It isn’t the amount of pages
In the book
It’s what is written on them
Each page filled with love
Eyes eager to read every word
Enthralled and captivated
As the story unfolds
When the story is over
And the book comes to a close
We can’t leave the book
We re-read it many times
~ Anon ~
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I held a jewel
poem by Emily Dickinson
I held a jewel in my fingers
And went to sleep
The day was warm, and winds were prosy
I said, "Twill keep"
I woke - and chide my honest fingers,
The Gem was gone
And now, an Amethyst remembrance
Is all I own
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The Other Side
This isn't death, it's glory!
It isn't dark, it's light.
It isn't stumbling, groping,
Or even faith, it's sight!
This isn't grief, it's having
My last tear wiped away.
It's sunrise, it's the morning
Of my eternal day!
This isn't even praying,
It's speaking face to face.
It's listening, and it's glimpsing
The wonders of His Grace.
This is the end of pleading
For strength to bear my pain.
Not even pain's dark memory
Will ever live again.
How did I bear the earth life
Before I came up higher,
Before my soul was granted
It's every deep desire.
Before I knew this rapture
Of meeting face to face
That One who sought and saved me,
And kept me by His Grace!
~ Author Unknown~
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We say goodbye
To the old year
Church bells ring
In the new
We have faith
A bit of hope
And love
To get us through
Everyone looks
Forward
We can only
Look back
At precious moments
We once had
Today we’ll raise
A glass and shed a tear
For our precious
Loved one
Who can’t be here
As we enter
Another lonely
New Year
Copyright© Leza 30.12.2011
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Bridge of Love
There is a bridge of love
From our hearts to you
Where we've built love and memories
And admiration too.
This bridge of love is strongly built
To stretch far and wide
Keeping thoughts of our precious angels
Always by our sides
~Agnes Marshall~
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