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| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Death | 02/12/2006 |
| Visitors | 2,336 since 13/06/2009 |
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What a cruel test of nature. I was NOT suppose to even be able to get pregnant. I had my tubes
looped (tied) after my daughter was born when I was 22 and @ the age of 26 I had a partial
hysterectomy. Appartently, my one tube came unlooped enough for my egg to ovulate to the tip and be
fertalize right there. So, I had a tubal pregnancy. 1 in 750,000 of a chance. I was so sick, we
thought I had the flu. Then out of the blue, a family member said, "why don't you just go get a
pregnancy test done, just for giggles!" I took my niece a couple days later (Nov.22nd) to planned
parenthood and she had a test done. So, I said, "I'm here. Might as well." The joke was on ME!! It
came back POSSITIVE!!! We were in COMPLETE disbelief!! I made the woman do it TWICE....I knew this
was not a good thing and so did she...But, I went home, and showed the tests to my husband....We
figured I got pregnant somewhere in October, without a period we couldn't be sure. So, we went by
when I started getting so sick. The whole 9 weeks I was pregnant that baby would not let me eat
ANYTHING except fresh veggies and fruit! I couldn't be around ANY meat raw OR cooked...The smell and
sight just....UGH!! What a great Thanksgiving :) Me, sicker than a dog and trying to cook a feast
for 15 ppl. I tried so hard not to get excited because I knew I couldn't carry him but it was so
hard and my poor husband didn't understand any of it, except it could not be. He tried to come up
with every possibility there was to save our son. The doctors set up on the 30th of Nov (after
confirming through blood work that I was in fact pregnant) for me to come in on the 4th of Dec. to
have him removed. BUT, I ended up passing him on Dec 2nd. I started bleeding around 8 p.m on Dec.
1st. I called my husband in and told him what was happenning. And by 1:00 a.m on Dec 2nd, He was
gone. I had passed my baby boy. Such bad days either way...the 4th of Dec
was my fathers Angel Day and Dec 2 was my wedding anniversary of my marriage to my ex-husband. But
God took my precious baby boy on the early hours of the 2nd. Like I said I knew, I was not suppose
to get pregnant. But that does not stop the pain any less. Writing and talking about him is just
another way for me to get some of the grief out. I have a tattoo my husband, designed for me and his
son on my right fore arm and we are making a granite slate for him eventually. His name is Marty
Charles Ascani even though I couldn't carry him, we still named him, for he WAS and IS our baby.
Ever since I lost him, I still to this day, even 3 yrs later, feel an empty void in my life, that I
know will never go away. Sleep tight my little boy for we will all meet again in Gods Heavens one
day. Be that brightest star in His Heavenly sky and know Mommy & Daddy do miss you very much!! And
know you were there and DID exist, even if only for a brief time. We love you!!
I want to thank everyone that takes the time to stop and read about my precious angel, if you have a
moment pls light a candle, not just for him, but for all the loved ones we all have lost too soon!
God be with you & yours! XXxxXX
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
The time has come for me to release you
Free to fly high above this world.
Where the flowers forever bloom &
The ultimate love fills the space.
In my attempt to try to keep you
I've only been able to hold the anger
Not realizing that I have to let you go
I can't hold on.
I'll no more keep your pain alive,
I won't try to hold you down.
I'll let you fly on to higher ground.
My grief has left a numbness,
as if this isn't real
You are in my heart forever,
but I know I have to let you be free.
Soar high.
Laugh as a child that feels the joy of the moment.
Play among the rivers flowing through the hills.
Roam the fields of daisies.
Fly to the top of the mountains.
With closed eyes, I see you among the flowers,
High above the clouds.
Your presence blows through me with the breeze.
Your smile beams down on through the sun.
The full moon brings the light of your laughter to my mind.
And the Butterfly in all its splendour reminds me
of your beauty and freedom now.
Leaving your love for me lingering in my world.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
by Cynthia Taylor
Do Babies Grow Up in Heaven?
by Unknown
Will I know my baby when we meet again?
Will he have grown up, not be the infant that died in my womb?
Will I recognize him, be able to find him among so many others?
Or will he be a stranger to me, not knowing who I am,
or me knowing him?
Do babies grow up in heaven?
He never got his first tooth, or said his first words.
No first shoes, no Santa, no first birthday cake.
Will my son still be a baby when we meet again?
Do babies grow up in heaven?
Who sings him precious lullabies?
Who holds him close and kisses him everyday?
Who tells him constantly that they love him?
Do babies grow up in heaven?
When we next meet, will he know me?
Will he want to know me?
Will he be my baby that died, or a man, fully grown?
Will I have the joy of being a mother to my son for all eternity?
Do babies grow up in heaven?
Will I be able to hold him, love him, sing lullabies to him?
Will I be able to hold his tiny hand, or will it be a man's hand?
Will I ever have the joy that only holding my son can bring?
Will I ever know the answer?
In heaven, is my baby still a baby?
3 Yrs ago today
Hello my Precious one,
Mommy has NOT forgot about you, I have just been running crazy and my mind has not nor is really in the right frame of mind lately. It hurts SO much to know just 3 short years ago we were finding out about you. That was such a bitter sweet day. I remember everything I did every moment after I found out you were inside me. It was 3:17 p.m. when I was told. I still don't understand it, I really don't. I know you existed for the brief time you did for a reason, but I just can't grasp the fact you DID exist and I don't have you here with me to love and spoil. You are ALWAYS a part of me. My love for you, FOREVER grows more and more everyday. I have such a hard time this time of the year. The pain is so overwhelming. For you & Pop Paw ARE so much my world. Everyday, you and him are spoke of with so much love, thought of with so much love, wanted here with me....so very much. I often wonder who you look like? Daddy? Me? Robert? Heather? A mixture of all of us? The italian side of daddy and I? With our dark hair and Daddys blue eyes. You'd probably have straight hair cuz ALL of us have curly!! :) I guess I'll Know when you greet me at Heavens gates. Then I will FINALLY get to see my child and hold you so close to me that you'll hear my heart beat. Until then, I am here, parts empty from the loss of those I hold closest to me with all my soul. I love you always my baby boy!!
Love
Mommy
XXooXX
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Always watching over us as we go our way,
Never taking their eyes from us a minute of the day,
Guardians who are here to keep us from all harm
Each time we face danger, darkness, or alarm,
Looking out for us through each trial we face,
Sent straight from heaven, by His mercy, love, and grace.
❤
by Judy Parker
Night night Angel Marty x x x
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Good night sweet Angel..
The one that we miss
Just you snuggle down..
As I blow you a kiss
Sweet dreams special one..
Who we adore
We love you as much now..
As we did before
God Bless precious Angel..
I shall say night night
Now you rest your wings..
And cuddle up tight
copyright� Jackie Thomas 01/08/09.
⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰
I know your heart is breaking
And your eyes are filled with tears
But I ask you not to cry for me
Because your smile is so dear
⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰
My time has come to go
To heaven up above
Where there’s no more pain and suffering
It’s peaceful like a dove
⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰
I’ll save a place right next to me
In our castle past the gates
Until its time for you to join me
God and I will wait
⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰ ⊱☆⊰
~Annamarie Pridgen~
♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥
Weep not for me
Now that I have passed.
Remember the laughter, the affection, the joy
Not just the recent tears.
Cherish the memories, our hopes and dreams.
Hold fast to the love that we shared.
Be happy with the time we spent together
And being anew.
For I am not really gone,
I am closer than ever before.
As the morning sun rises
And throughout the busy day...I am with you.
Until the setting sun disappears on the horizon
And we watch the day turn into night...I am here.
You may feel a faint breeze stir round your head, while you slumber
As I gently kiss your forehead, "Good night."
The stars that shine so brightly in my heavenly sky
Help me watch over you and keep you from harm.
I am the wind in the trees
And the song of a bird.
I am moonbeams in a midnight sky
And a glorious rainbow after the storm.
I am morning dew
And freshly-fallen snow.
I am a butterfly flying overhead
And a puppy happily at play.
I am a smile on a stranger's face
A gentle touch
A warm embrace.
Listen to the wind for my message of love.
Watch the sun rise and set in the sky with me.
Feel my essence encircle you with warm memories.
Open your heart to know...I am not gone.
Reach deep into your soul...You will find me.
I am here.
Have no fear.
I am with you,
Always.
♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥ ︽♥
Kirsti
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I know it’s hard and painful now
And your heart is truly breaking
But I just wanted you to know
As time goes on it will stop aching
I did not leave you there alone
I’m closer now than ever
I’m in your thoughts
Your mind and dreams
I’ll be with you forever
❤
Unknown
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17TH NOVEMBER 2009
(✣) My Angel (✣)
(✣)My Angels halo shines with love
My Angel is in Gods arms above
My Angel is so beautiful you see..
My Angel watches down on me (✣)
(✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣)
(✣)Sweet dreams precious Angel
Just you snuggle up tight
And rest your wings 'til morning light
Watch over all your family with love..
Beautiful Angel....
In Gods kingdom above (✣)
Love Jude. x x
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copyright ~ Jackie Thomas 10/11/09
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Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
I see beyond my vision
I hear beyond my range
I feel beyond my senses
And it doesn't seem so strange.
There's a language of enchantment
We all should recognize
Including naming angels
We can't see before our eyes.
They hover all around us
While guiding.... teaching.... keeping
Offer strength when we are weakest
And sympathy while weeping.
I may never see an angel
But I know that they exist
For, at just the time I've needed one
I've felt an angel's kiss!
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ❤Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
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